March 16, 2015


Lay your life down. Your heartbeats cannot be hoarded. Your reservoir of breaths is draining away. You have hands, blister them while you can. You have bones, make them strain-they can carry nothing in the grave. You have lungs, let them spill with laughter. With an average life expectancy of 78.2 years in the US (subtracting eight hours a day for sleep), I have around 250,00 conscious hours remaining to me in which I could be smiling or scowling, rejoicing in my life, in this race, in this story, or moaning and complaining about my troubles. I can be giving my fingers, my back, my mind, my words, my breaths, to my wife and my children and my neighbors, or I can grasp after the vapor and the vanity for myself, dragging my feet, afraid to die and therefore afraid to live. And, like Adam, I will still die in the end. ~N.D. Wilson
If, then, I were asked for the most important advice I could give, that which I considered to be the most useful to the men of our century, I should simply say: in the name of God, stop a moment, cease your work, look around you. ~Leo Tolstoy
It is not easy to convey a sense of wonder, let alone resurrection wonder, to another. It’s the very nature of wonder to catch us off guard, to circumvent expectations and assumptions. Wonder can’t be packaged, and it can’t be worked up. It requires some sense of being there and some sense of engagement. ~Eugene H. Peterson
We must understand that God does not "love" us without liking us--through gritted teeth--as "Christian" love is sometimes thought to do. Rather, out of the eternal freshness of his perpetually self-renewed being, the heavenly Father cherishes the earth and each human being upon it. The fondness, the endearment, the unstintingly affectionate regard of God toward all his creatures is the natural outflow of what he is to the core - which we vainly try to capture with our tired but indispensable old word "love." ~Dallas Willard
...we unwittingly project onto God our own attitudes and feelings toward ourselves... But we cannot assume that He feels about us the way we feel about ourselves--unless we love ourselves compassionately, intensely, and freely. ~Brennan Manning

March 8, 2015

2015 || Trust

There is one thing that God says to every believer regardless of their circumstances--'trust me.' ~Unknown
It's a word I've been latching onto since this past summer. I'm not ready to let go of this word yet, nor do I want to put it up on a shelf all polished and sparkly to begin anew with a new one for this year. To be honest I don't think humans ever get to graduate from learning to 'trust' God. 

Here's the thing though: God is wild. God is mysterious often.

And because He is wild, to quote Mr. Beaver from the tales of Narnia, "he isn't safe... but he's good."

Learning to love and know deeply someone who's wild is hard--especially for those of us (like myself) who have a bent towards being skeptical. I'm sorely lacking in the trust department for many reasons. I'm finding that believing and trusting God to be and do all He says… is the hardest battle I fight. The hardest truth we ALL fight to believe and live out of.

Lack of trust is at the root of all our fears. 
Lack of trust is the reason we don't listen to God or follow Him.
Lack of trust is why so many of us don't live life bravely. 
Lack of trust is why we don't love well. 

We give God top little credit. We don't give Him enough space. We don't know Him as He wishes to be known. And it all circles back to this issue of trust. 

This year, along with being intentional, I want to dig my feet into this one question:
"What does it mean to know God so well that we trust God no matter what?" (from The Holy Wild)

Giving a shout-out to The Giving Keys today, who exist to aid the homeless back on their feet by providing them with a steady job to build experience and skills. They create jewelry out of old keys with a word stamped upon them that you desire to live more of in your life (e.g. strength, dream, hope, love). After you've worn the key as a reminder to the point where you feel like that word has become ingrained into your life, you pass on the key to someone else whom you think would be encouraged to live into that same message. Neat idea, right? I have one with the word 'trust' stamped on it to wear this year. You can purchase your own key here, and learn more about the company's story here.

March 4, 2015

2015 || February Progress, March Goals

Flipping the calendar to March is always a welcoming sight for my eyes. A small sign that spring cannot be far away and that the snow will be gone sooner than later. This last February wasn't productive in the least (I blame it on a new job adjustment and winter blues), so I won't even bother going over last months goals since many of them are carried over into this month's.
|| Career
  • Update resume and portfolio
  • Continue applying for full time teaching positions as they come up
  • Launch teaching blog

|| Blogging
  • Get back on track with a blogging schedule--figure out and carve a specific time to give this the time and attention I want to
  • Give the blog a bit of a facelift (new design)
  • Catch up on my favorite blogs and bloggers

|| Stewardship
  • Discern financial goals and budgeting priorities
  • Arrange student loan payment plan

|| Wellness
  • Come up with new workout regiment
  • Drink more water 
  • Establish morning routine and night routine

What are your goals or something you're looking forward to this month?